Embrace the hill...but don't go over it!
Somewhere along the way, I woke up and found that I am no longer in my 20's or my 30's. The numbers keep rising. I do not want to go over the hill, so I will just embrace the hill. BIG BIG HUG!!! I don't want to see what is on the other side. It was hard enough getting to the top of this little hill, only to find out that there are many
mountains in my way. What am I to do? If it were football, I could punt. That would put more pain on my arthritic knees and my bone spurred feet. Now I have to figure out how to stay on the defensive. The big 50 is knocking. But I am still on the hill and I will stay there with a "death grip" as long as I can.
It's true that time goes faster as one get older. One day you are wondering "What will I be when I grow up?" You have big plans and think, "When I am old, say 30 or so...I will have all this money and be able to retire." In the blink of an eye, you are all grown up, (at least in age) not "thirty" but "forty something". You realize..."Where is the money...will I ever be able to retire?" The answer is "NO"! And after I can longer work the job that I have now, I will be a WalMart greeter. I will be working until the day I die.
In the mean time, I need to stop looking in the mirror. Stop looking at what gravity has done. I don't even remember when that happen! When did all those wrinkles start? Who ever heard of adult acne? My skin was always clear as a teenager. People told me that I was too thin. When was the last time that I heard that? Not that I want to be too thin...but I hate being too fat.
Maybe I can click my feet together (ouch..those bone spurs) and repeat these words, "I am young, sucessful and good looking".
Ok, I will just embrace this hill for awhile.
